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If you’re reading this post then the odds are you have some questions and concerns about alcoholics anonymous. If you have questions and concerns about alcoholics anonymous, AA for short,  then you are probably starting to think that you are developing a problem with alcohol or drugs. If that’s you? Then this post is for you. If this post helps take the edge off and gets you to your first meeting, then I have done my job. The number one fear I hear from new people to the program is that they think AA is too religious. They think AA is some sort of religious cult  and we AA people are going to suck you in, take your money and your first born child. The truth of the matter is, AA can be as religious as you want it to be, or can be void of any religion, it is totally and completely up to you. I am not making this up.  The core principals of AA are simply the 12 steps. Those 12 steps are pretty straight forward and it is totally up to you on how you implement them into your life. When I first entered the program [...]

The only thing that over analyzing yourself while you are in recovery will do for you is delay your progress down the spiritual path. Analyzing ourselves is a normal process we all go through. Our ego’s will always tell us that we can fix ourselves, and we believe it. But if we spend days, weeks and/or months analyzing ourselves we are doing more harm than good. I’m going share with you what happened to me and what I learned to prevent myself from repeating it. This past weekend I attended a three day alcoholics anonymous retreat. I had been looking forward to this retreat for the past several months. But what happened to me took me by total surprise and was the last thing I ever expected to happen. On the way up I was practically giddy with excitement.  I knew it was going to be a positive experience and I couldn’t wait to arrive. But as we pulled into the complex I was suddenly and completely overwhelmed with fear. I just wanted to turn right around and go home. My ego popped it’s ugly head up and said, “Hold on here brother, for the next three days you are [...]

Fear is everywhere, behind every corner and around every bend just waiting to pounce. Fear is probably the biggest enemy of most alcoholics. I know it is for me. To make matters worse, I also have to deal with Mr. Ego who just loves to hide fear from me. My ego disguises fear so I don’t see it coming until it’s too late. Until the damage is done. Today is a fine example of that, I didn’t sleep very well last night. I went to bed around 11pm. My sleep was fitful at best and I was up and ready to go at 3:30 am. (That sounds bad, but just so you know, I’m one of those early risers. I”m up at 4:30 every morning. Early Bird Gets The Worm and all that stuff) So I get up, make my coffee and fire up the computer to check my email and put together my GTD list for the day. OK, here is mistake number one, I only slept about four and a half hours and I was very restless. Did I sit down, break out the paper and pen and try to figure out where I am emotionally? why I didn’t [...]

My first post…. Yikes…. Let the rant begin… I’m starting this blog about 7 months into my sobriety and my quest for Nirvana. If I start talking about something that makes no sense to you, please don’t hesitate to ask me to clarify. I will try to give you as much background as I can remember to, but I’m sure I will leave out a detail or two. Hopefully everything will flow. The past week or so my ego has been getting out of control and seriously hating the world. As far as I’m concerned, you are all stupid. Straight up Morons!!! All you all!! This has really concerned me that last day or two because the last few months I have been feeling like Gandhi and loving everyone. Then bam, out of the blue I’m the irritable, discontented hate monster. In the About page I mentioned that I was brain damaged. That is actually true. In 2007 I was diagnosed with a dandy walker cyst that was the size of a small child’s fist that started wreaking havoc on my brain. I have since had a VP shunt installed to help drain the extra spinal fluid to relieve pressure. The Dandy [...]