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  When I first started learning about spriituality, the discussions I would have with people always focused around “Having a Spiritual Awakening”. They would tell me that it is the most wonderful experiance a person could have and how it would change there lives. As you read along in this blog you’ll come to learn that I do not always get things right away. As well as having the typical male defect of not asking for directions. So when people used the word “awakening” I interpreted that word along the same line as “when you wake up in the morning”. So, needles to say, as I started on my spiritual path i was expecting to have this huge burning bush magic moment. To date, that huge burning bush moment has not come, although I’m still expecting one. I meditate every day, with the anticipation that today will be the day! Some days, when I meditate, I honestly feel that I am on the verge of having that kapow moment,but it just doesn’t materialize. What I have come to learn is that a spiritual awakening is not neccassarily a kapow moment, although for some people it is. For myself my spiritual awakening has been an ongoing process. [...]

  I’m sitting on the deck of my four hundred square foot apartment watching the sunset. I can not believe how lucky I am, how much my life has changed in the last ten months. It’s been almost a year since I moved here. I was still drinking when arrived. I still remember the day I said enough was enough. I got on the internet, did a quick google search for AA meetings and I was off and running. Well, off and running the next day, I still had a twelve pack in the refrigerator I needed to kill. I couldn’t pour it down the drain, that would have been a waste of money. Now I’m sitting here, ten months later typing away on the old Sony Vaio that I managed to resurect, watching the sunset in the west without a care in the world. I always feel this way after I finish my walking meditation. I have always been a walker, so when I started meditating walking meditation was a perfect fit for me. Walking meditation, simply put is just walking while you focus in on the present. You focus on the simple act of walking, one step at [...]

What is Spirituality? I think Wikipedia puts it best… Spirituality can refer to an ultimate or an alleged immaterial reality; an inner path enabling a person to discover the essence of their being; or the “deepest values and meanings by which people live.” Spiritual practices, including meditation, prayer and contemplation, are intended to develop an individual’s inner life; spiritual experience includes that of connectedness with a larger reality, yielding a more comprehensive self; with other individuals or the human community; with nature or the cosmos; or with the divine realm. Spirituality is often experienced as a source of inspiration or orientation in life.  It can encompass belief in immaterial realities or experiences of the immanent or transcendent nature of the world. I had a conversation with a friend a while back and we were discssing the difference between spirituality and religion.  This was his conclusion that he had also heard from others.. Religion is for people that do not want to go to Hell. Spirituality is for people who have already been to hell and do not wish to go back. I think that’s said perfectly.Bookmark on DeliciousDigg this postRecommend on Facebookshare via RedditShare with StumblersTweet about itSubscribe to the [...]

My first post…. Yikes…. Let the rant begin… I’m starting this blog about 7 months into my sobriety and my quest for Nirvana. If I start talking about something that makes no sense to you, please don’t hesitate to ask me to clarify. I will try to give you as much background as I can remember to, but I’m sure I will leave out a detail or two. Hopefully everything will flow. The past week or so my ego has been getting out of control and seriously hating the world. As far as I’m concerned, you are all stupid. Straight up Morons!!! All you all!! This has really concerned me that last day or two because the last few months I have been feeling like Gandhi and loving everyone. Then bam, out of the blue I’m the irritable, discontented hate monster. In the About page I mentioned that I was brain damaged. That is actually true. In 2007 I was diagnosed with a dandy walker cyst that was the size of a small child’s fist that started wreaking havoc on my brain. I have since had a VP shunt installed to help drain the extra spinal fluid to relieve pressure. The Dandy [...]