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  When I first started learning about spriituality, the discussions I would have with people always focused around “Having a Spiritual Awakening”. They would tell me that it is the most wonderful experiance a person could have and how it would change there lives. As you read along in this blog you’ll come to learn that I do not always get things right away. As well as having the typical male defect of not asking for directions. So when people used the word “awakening” I interpreted that word along the same line as “when you wake up in the morning”. So, needles to say, as I started on my spiritual path i was expecting to have this huge burning bush magic moment. To date, that huge burning bush moment has not come, although I’m still expecting one. I meditate every day, with the anticipation that today will be the day! Some days, when I meditate, I honestly feel that I am on the verge of having that kapow moment,but it just doesn’t materialize. What I have come to learn is that a spiritual awakening is not neccassarily a kapow moment, although for some people it is. For myself my spiritual awakening has been an ongoing process. [...]

. Working on your 4th Step can be a very daunting task. When my sponsor told me that the time had come to put pencil to paper and start working on the 4th step, the first thing that came to my mind was, “I need a template!, Let the Google searches begin!” Yes I’m a geek. I found some great templates out there, but for me, they didn’t have exactly what I was looking for. None of them gave me enough room to write. I had a lot of resentments and I had a lot to say about them. So I created my own 4th Step Worksheet for resentments. I designed it so I had more room to write (it’s still not enough) and present my thoughts in a clear manor. I have made it available for you to download. If you find it useful or have some ideas for improvement I would love to hear about them. If you enjoy it, please share it, give it a tweet or leave a comment. Thanks! . .

I don’t know about the rest of you but I have a huge imagination. I am always day dreaming, imagining what my life will be like a year from now. For the most part it is my escape from the world as I imagine myself doing big important things in the future. Early on in my sobriety I also became a huge believer in positive affirmations. As you know the main principle behind positive affirmations is to be positive and think nothing but positive thoughts. Then one day I was sitting in an AA meeting and someone started talking about future tripping and how it was a bad thing. Others then began to chime in on the negative reprocutions of future tripping. As I sat there listening I thought “Yikes! I’m always future tripping and imagining myself doing wonderful positive things, I have to stop doing that too??. The humility alone was bad enough, now you want to take this away from me!!” I’m a guy, and no, I do not ask for directions. So I haven’t said a word or asked anyone, not even my sponsors, (I have three, the more the merrier) to clarify future tripping. I know [...]

  I’m sitting on the deck of my four hundred square foot apartment watching the sunset. I can not believe how lucky I am, how much my life has changed in the last ten months. It’s been almost a year since I moved here. I was still drinking when arrived. I still remember the day I said enough was enough. I got on the internet, did a quick google search for AA meetings and I was off and running. Well, off and running the next day, I still had a twelve pack in the refrigerator I needed to kill. I couldn’t pour it down the drain, that would have been a waste of money. Now I’m sitting here, ten months later typing away on the old Sony Vaio that I managed to resurect, watching the sunset in the west without a care in the world. I always feel this way after I finish my walking meditation. I have always been a walker, so when I started meditating walking meditation was a perfect fit for me. Walking meditation, simply put is just walking while you focus in on the present. You focus on the simple act of walking, one step at [...]