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I’m now nine months and some days into my sobriety and I believe I owe a large part of that to my new and improved connection with my spiritual side aka my higher power. I’ve discovered that there are two ways that my Higher Power speaks to me. One is through other people, and the other is through meditation. There is nothing better than clearing my mind of all the nonsensical stuff that i think about all day long to focus on the things that really matter, my sobriety, my family & my friends. For those of you who are new to meditation I’m going to share with you how I practice my art of meditation. I am by no means an expert, in fact I consider myself a novice but I consider meditation so important to my sobriety that I want to share my thoughts and practice with you. Take from it what you will and hopefully others will share how they meditate as well. Location, Location Location I need a spot away from any distractions. Turn the cell phone off, no TV, no radio, no cats crying for food, no one to bother you. Solitude is the name [...]

Fear is everywhere, behind every corner and around every bend just waiting to pounce. Fear is probably the biggest enemy of most alcoholics. I know it is for me. To make matters worse, I also have to deal with Mr. Ego who just loves to hide fear from me. My ego disguises fear so I don’t see it coming until it’s too late. Until the damage is done. Today is a fine example of that, I didn’t sleep very well last night. I went to bed around 11pm. My sleep was fitful at best and I was up and ready to go at 3:30 am. (That sounds bad, but just so you know, I’m one of those early risers. I”m up at 4:30 every morning. Early Bird Gets The Worm and all that stuff) So I get up, make my coffee and fire up the computer to check my email and put together my GTD list for the day. OK, here is mistake number one, I only slept about four and a half hours and I was very restless. Did I sit down, break out the paper and pen and try to figure out where I am emotionally? why I didn’t [...]

What is Spirituality? I think Wikipedia puts it best… Spirituality can refer to an ultimate or an alleged immaterial reality; an inner path enabling a person to discover the essence of their being; or the “deepest values and meanings by which people live.” Spiritual practices, including meditation, prayer and contemplation, are intended to develop an individual’s inner life; spiritual experience includes that of connectedness with a larger reality, yielding a more comprehensive self; with other individuals or the human community; with nature or the cosmos; or with the divine realm. Spirituality is often experienced as a source of inspiration or orientation in life.  It can encompass belief in immaterial realities or experiences of the immanent or transcendent nature of the world. I had a conversation with a friend a while back and we were discssing the difference between spirituality and religion.  This was his conclusion that he had also heard from others.. Religion is for people that do not want to go to Hell. Spirituality is for people who have already been to hell and do not wish to go back. I think that’s said perfectly.

My first post…. Yikes…. Let the rant begin… I’m starting this blog about 7 months into my sobriety and my quest for Nirvana. If I start talking about something that makes no sense to you, please don’t hesitate to ask me to clarify. I will try to give you as much background as I can remember to, but I’m sure I will leave out a detail or two. Hopefully everything will flow. The past week or so my ego has been getting out of control and seriously hating the world. As far as I’m concerned, you are all stupid. Straight up Morons!!! All you all!! This has really concerned me that last day or two because the last few months I have been feeling like Gandhi and loving everyone. Then bam, out of the blue I’m the irritable, discontented hate monster. In the About page I mentioned that I was brain damaged. That is actually true. In 2007 I was diagnosed with a dandy walker cyst that was the size of a small child’s fist that started wreaking havoc on my brain. I have since had a VP shunt installed to help drain the extra spinal fluid to relieve pressure. The Dandy [...]